How writing kept me sane
Remembet back in the good ol’ days back when people yused to read & write? Nah? Me neither honestlly… But my point is the modern person’s attention span is literally shorter than a goldifsh’s. And that because our brains have been straight up turned into mush by constantly being spammed with content on Tik Tok & IG Reels. Some sources say the average person watches more than 200 tik toks a day, and thats on the lower side. I’ll say that I love the fact that people are able to create their own content & build their own brand straight from their phone. But I think that reliance on the phone stopped people from wanting to read/ write.
And while I’ll admit I used to hate reading when I was a kid, I always loved to write. It was a time where I could finally get my thoughts out of my head and onto to something. Whether it was in a journal, a line to a song I’ve written or even a poem, I just felt a huge sense of relief when I finally got that bullshit out of my head. I didn’t have the easiest childhood growing up at all. It had nothing to do with the life my parents provided me, or not having enough food in the house, it was bullying at school that literally broke me for years. It made me not want to talk to people, focus on the work in class, or even come to school period.
But there was something about having that creative expression for me to express myself. I would create fake storylines & characters to some of my favorite video games & tv shows, then I would draw those guys out, with a while backstory to who they are and how they got here. I loved flexing that creative muscle since I was a kid. And despite my confidence being in the fuckin dirt at times because of the bullying & name-calling thrown at me, I really felt like having the skill is what separated me from everyone else. They may have been faster, bigger, stronger than me, but I knew none of them had the creative skills that I did. And I loved it.
NOt only did it give me confidence, most importantly it gave me that release of pent up energy that I had inside me. There were a bunch of times where I would feel some weird shit that I wasn’t feeling before. And figure out what made me think deeper about where those feelings could’ve come from & what brought them up. It was my form of therapy when I couldnt afford to pay a professional to talk to. In short, the shit changed my life. If I didn’t have an outlet to express myself that would just be for my eyes only, then I don’t know what I would’ve done. Who knows where. Iwould be right now. Not a good place I know that…
Now here we are in the end of 2023, where I get paid to write scripts & create content for one of the biggest companies in the country. It’s hard to conceptualize while doing it in the moment, but whenever I sit back & think about it, I’m like damn bro I really did that shit. It took forever to get here, but here I am. It makes me want to start to shed a single thug tear lol. Regardless of how things end, I can say I worked hard and got to the top level of the videography/ cinematography space. And I’m not even done yet… Just getting started.
And it all started with a love for writing, story-telling & creating. So if you’re reading this I’m begging you (not really, your life), but to start writing. Whether it’s poetry, journaling your thoughts, some creative story-telling.. .something! Just get that bullshit from out of your head. Fuck it, I’m actually gonna challenge y’all.. see if you can write at least once a week for the rest of the year.
And give yourself a cute lil gift if you can do it lol.
Please keep writing & don’t let social media dribble turn your brain to trash.
Thanks for reading :)
